fikiran
does it ever cross your mind,
that perhaps we’re beyond repair? that no ounce of strength we put into this could fix us? maybe this is all we are meant to be. maybe this is our end.
right person, wrong time;
tough reality, but it exists. it just sucks more to be on the receiving end. i think it’s time we realize that the damage done to each other is too heavy to bear.
but i also think that no two loves are the same.
i found a friend, a bestfriend, a brother, a partner, a lover, a soulmate, and a million more other things in you. i owe you the credit for all our memories lived together, the good and the bitter.
where you end up after this, i could only imagine. but i know you’ll go far. you’re born to succeed. success has your name written all over it. your journey hasn’t been easy, but i just know you’re going to make it out better than you could ever imagine.
maybe this is a goodbye note.
i am not so sure myself.
i’m unsure of when this will reach your sights, but i’ve lowered my guard to be as vulnerable and raw of my emotions tonight. this is my safe space.
everytime i think about it, i always imagine us bumping into each other in the future. a different familiarity. better, i imagine. maybe then it would’ve been right person, right time.
however, it’s okay if that’s not the reality. if you find someone else, i could only imagine how happy and content you are! you deserve that more than anyone i know. i really hope this time you’re not settling for less or holding on.. you’ve had enough of that, don’t you think so?
lastly, i hope you find it in you with all strength and courage to forgive me. sincerely and wholeheartedly forgive me. not the half-assed, grudge-holding kind. but the kind whereby if we do bump into each other, we’re able to have a decent light hearted conversation without any resent.
i, for sure have already forgiven you. the forgiveness comes with the anger.
you can take credit for this :p i wouldn’t be the person i am today without you. whether to thank you for that, i’m not so sure, hehe.
i’m kidding.
thank you for everything.
now, go and live your life! no regrets, leave the past in the past. you’re your own man now.
a.s
